I’ve recently been studying about Jesus Christ’s atoning sacrifice, which has brought many feelings to the surface and helped me to recognize the importance of His grace in my life. I was awakened at 4:30 this morning with thoughts about feeling God’s love more abundantly in my life. I’ve felt the guidance of the Savior’s hand in my life lately as never before, and have felt the undeniable promptings to put it in writing. He says:
Matthew 11-30; 28 ¶ Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
I know that the Savior leads us along and wants us to have a voice and be strong and help gather his children back to him. So in that spirit, I am striving to be a diligent servant and share His word through my personal experiences, and hopefully it will help someone out there who may be experiencing something similar. Or who maybe just need a little lift in their day.
I had a dream recently that really gave me pause. I was riding in a car with my husband and it was a blizzard outside. We could barely see the road because of the wind and snow falling. We were on a canyon road that was a mountain on one side and a drop off on the other. I could see that we were dangerously close to the cliff. Suddenly the car began to swerve and I could see that we were going to slide off the road. There was nothing that we could do. I remember feeling so helpless as I looked to my husband and saw the same look on his face. I was thinking “Is this how it is all going to end for us?”
As we slid off the cliff and started falling, I was astounded as I looked to the left, to see a large hand glowing white, come around the the front bumper of the car. It was a huge hand that engulfed the whole left side of the car. And then as I glanced to the right I saw another huge glowing white hand (I can’t really say glowing, it was more like on fire), brighter than you can imagine. I definitely knew in my minds eye, that it was God’s hands coming around the car to shield us from the impending crash. I remember being astonished at the strength and comfort that seeing those hands, brought to me. I could see that we were going to crash. But I could also see that we were going to be surrounded in the arms of his love and in some way protected from the inevitable damage that would take place. Then, just as the hands came around us, we began to hit the trees… and that’s when I woke up.
This past year and a half has been especially difficult for us. You can read some about it here. When I told my husband about my dream he said, “well we did kind of go off a cliff!” And even though I laughed when he said it, I knew he was right. I had been praying and pleading with the Lord to help us find a way out of the situation that we have been in. We like to joke that we were on a bicycle built for two with our arms spread out wide, the wind blowing in our hair, just coasting along. And then someone took a stick and put it in the spokes and we came to a sudden stop and went flying over the top!
For months and months we both pleaded with the Lord for guidance and direction. I feel like this dream came to me to remind me that even though we experience REALLY TOUGH things in our lives, He is always there to protect us when we go off the cliff and hit the trees. We still fall, we still hit the trees, but his loving arms surround us….2 Nephi 15:25; but his hand is stretched out still, no matter what we are experiencing in our lives.
Through this experience we have seen many miracles. We have felt the spirit lead and guide us. It has changed who we are. And it has strengthened our testimonies of the gospel of Jesus Christ. Our Savior felt it all when he suffered for us in Gethsemane, He suffered the unimaginable so that we would be able to one day return to our loving Father in Heaven. I am so grateful that I have been able to feel His love, grace and mercy in my life more abundantly. It has been rough, bumpy and uphill climb but when we are growing the road is always uphill!
We still aren’t out of the woods, in fact some days I feel like we are still sitting in the crashed car saying “what just happened?” But I am constantly reminded of the love that our Heavenly Father has for us if we will just reach out for it! Therein lies the secret. Revelation 3:20 Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me. We have to be the ones to reach out to Him. He stands at the door and knocks but we must open the door and let him in.
It is my prayer that we can take his yoke upon us and learn of him so that we can better handle the situations that are thrown at us each and every day. John 14:6; For he is the way the truth and the life!