Does it ever get better? Will I ever feel happy again? Why is this burden so heavy and why was I asked to carry it? These are just a few if the many questions that you may struggle with. Some answers may come quickly then there are some that may never come in this lifetime.
Sometimes you may find yourself digging a deeper and deeper hole as you list off all of the negative ways that BPD (Bipolar Disorder) has affected your life. It’s so easy to throw a little pity party and blame ‘all the things’ on your illness.
But the truth is, there is so much more to you than your illness. You are not defined by it! There are certainly times in your life that it may seem to control your every thought and move. And at times, you feel like others truly define you by it (some probably do). But it is only Satan that will have you believe that you have no control. He is the father of all lies. He would have you believe that you can never get well, that you will continue to hurt others in your life, that your life is not worth living, that you are all ALONE. But Satan is wrong!
You see, God will never ever leave you! He begs you to come to Him. He beckons you to lay all of your burdens at his feet. To let Him Heal you!
One of my favorite songs by Sidewalk Prophets says:
To the hero and the coward
To the prisoner and the soldier
To the young, to the older
All who hunger, all who thirst
All the last, all the first
All the paupers and the princes
All who fail you’ve been forgiven
All who dream, all who suffer
All who loved and lost another
All the chained, all the free
All who follow, all who lead
Anyone who’s been let down
All the lost you have been found
All who’ve been labeled right or wrong
Everyone who hears this song
Come, come to the table
I am reminded of so many times throughout scripture that the Lord pleads with us to come unto Him. To let Him heal our broken souls. He says in Mosiah 24:14
“And I will also ease the burdens which are put upon your shoulders, that even you cannot feel them upon your backs, even while you are in bondage; and this will I do that ye may stand as witnesses for me hereafter, and that ye may know of a surety that I, the Lord God, do visit my people in their afflictions.”
As we approach Easter this year I hope that you will put the atonement of Jesus Christ to work in your life. He is there for you. He loves you. And He has sent many people into your life to be His hands. To help you and to guide you and to help you realize that you are not alone!
I sincerely hope that your day and weekend gets better and that the sun will shine over you as you push through the hard days in your illness. Don’t give up! The fact that you are reading this post means that He does hear your cries.