Today I was thinking about adversity and trials and how hard it is sometimes to see beyond the trial. Especially when we are the thick of it. I know from personal experience how tough it can be to try to look past today and see a future that is bright. Especially when you add something like postpartum depression, anxiety, seasonal or ongoing depression, bipolar or any other illness to the mix. We tend to retreat into ourselves and fail to find purpose in what is happening in our life. Which I tend to believe is a great amount of refining. A little bit (or maybe a lot) of pressure and heat to form us into the masterpiece that we are.
One of my favorite scriptures comes from Proverbs 3:5
5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
In that scripture passage there are 4 words that stand out to me. Trust, lean, acknowledge and direct.
To me, he is saying, “Do you trust me enough to lean on me and let me guide you?”
When we acknowledge him we are humbling ourselves enough to recognize that he is in control. When we are humble we are teachable and moldable. We are allowing him to take the wheel (borrowing from Carrie Underwood) and steer us in the right direction.
I’ve said it before but I’ll say it again. His plan for our life is much bigger and better than our plan. And even though it’s hard when we are in the midst of something especially hard and painful, we have to learn to lean into the Master. He will mold us and shape us into the great people that we can be. There is always help, there is always a way. So today I want you to have hope and thrust that things are going to get better. Sometimes in the waiting it’s hard to imagine that it ever will. But finding a little piece of hope is all you need to take one more step towards the end of the tunnel where the light will come shining through. You will look back and be amazed at how far you’ve come! And if you are already in the light, continue to trust in him to keep you moving in the direction you need to go. That’s it for today!
XO Wendy
When I was a young mother, I had just had my fourth child. There were some complications during the birthing process. Consequently my precious tiny boy was rushed to Primary Children’s Medical Center in Salt Lake City. For most of the 12 days that he spent in the NICU we wondered if he would be coming home at all. It was heart wrenching to see that tiny little body lay lifeless in the incubator except for the machine that was helping him breath. I remember feeling so overwhelmed with heartache, pain and anguish, blaming myself for something that I may have done during my pregnancy. I had wished so hard for this baby to be born early and now he was, (2 weeks) and at what cost? What Had I done. It was a terrifying experience that many young couples experience when their child is born with medical issues. Luckily for us, his stay was brief and we were able to bring him home with just a feeding tube, which he was able to go without in just a few days of being home.
I have found a pattern for me in writing, posting on FB or instagram, or other forms of social media. I get really motivated and I go full steam for a while and then I fizzle out. I really don’t mean to ghost you. It’s just that a lot of times, life just has a way of getting in the way of some of these things. We have moved twice in the last 6 weeks, once from our home into a hotel (all of our belongings in a storage unit) , and then again from the storage unit into our new home. And the moves were 2 Saturdays in a row! It was crazy.
Pointing Toward Hope 